Just think of all the amazing roles in this play, I told myself, all of the badass, cunning, multi-layered, fully-formed, interesting characters that Shakespeare usually reserves for men! I could play Cassius…this could be my one and only chance to play Cassius!
I started this process with a gung-ho attitude for selfish reasons, it’s true. But as we have worked and sweated, bonded and giggled, laughed and cried, I have developed a completely different kind of enthusiasm for this show.
It has been really fun to watch (and feel) the transformation of this cast. It was obvious at the beginning that I was not the only one suffering from MGPTSD (mean girl post traumatic stress disorder), but everyone let their shields down and came in with open minds, and because of that we have had an amazing journey so far. We went from thinking that “tough”, “steely”, and “rugged” were only masculine terms that meant puffing chests and squaring jaws to finding those qualities as women. Finding our power, our danger, our camaraderie… as women.
Always, I am fascinated by the work being done by my colleagues. We got lucky. We got really, really lucky with this group.
I still think it could have gone horribly wrong, but I have learned over the years not to doubt Scott’s genius.
Not out loud, anyway.